somehow, some days, we should all be thankful

as i was having my breakfast with Hh and Ae, my mind lingered on some things. few things.

about what F has been through throughout her life, how Q been going through. their childhood. what i, my parents, my sisters have been through. 

some may get so lucky to have everything that everyone else has been dreaming for. 

financial wise, family bonding. we all struggled in our own ways. and we all managed to get through it

anyhow, it is how we choose to act to it. how we want it to be. how we control the situation. 

yes, sometimes it came up blank. blur.

but as long as the bond between our circle of loved ones is strong, we could face it, we would be strong.

i am very much thankful the bond between my sisters and i is still strong. Alhamdulillah. In shaa Allah it will stay that way. this kind of relationship that we hold onto. 

xoxo

T's Graduation at home (sebak ke happy ni??)

 School admin announced that the graduation will take place at students' home from 14th-18th. meaning that sch representative will come our home to pass whatever scroll, certs, etc. haihh.. entah ek. perasaan dia mcm bercampur baur. happy ke x happy ke atau mcm mana ni. nak kata happy, mcm sedih, nak kata sedih, pun macam happy. ke sebak ni? haaiiihhh.. sayuuuuunyaaaa hati ni..

a year ago, ada sch graduation day for K3 (6yrs old student Year 2019), T buat persembahan. comel nya dia masa tu. time tu dah sebak meleleh2 air mata kat bawah tgk dia received Maths award. so, masa tu dah bayang lah, bila dia nak grad utk K3 this year 2020, mesti akan nangis punya lah. sebab terharu ke apa lah. tapi, tak kesampaian sbb sekarang pun mcm ni (Covid-19) keadaan pun x mengizinkan nak ada proper grad ceremony. 

entah ek. hati masih terbuku. ada seketul batu kt salur pernafasan dr atas sampai ke tgh dada. tgh taip ni pun, mata tgh bergenang. i'm writing this, as part of our memories. mungkin lg 2 3 tahun ter scroll post ni, mesti dpt flashback semula apa yg jadi.

xoxo

Reborn dalam kesibukan PKP (Covid-19)

 tak tahu lah berapa banyak kali i cakap i nak reactivate this blog la, nak active kan balik lah apa, tapi mcm alaaa susahnya nak  bahagi masa. haha.

ok. for a start.

i have 3 sons.

1st - 6 years old (thaqif)

2nd - 4 yrs old (hasif)

3rd - 2 yrs old (ariq)

sekarang tgh PKPB (perintah kawalan pergerakan bersyarat) due to COVID-19. 

so this covid dtg kacau kita since march 2020. since march tu lah kena PKP jugak. masa awal2 tu lagi lah panic, panic buying lah, panic this la panic that la.sebab gov takde experience benda2 kan, we rakyat pun lagi lah. dgn business all shutdown. no school, no shops, only some je tu pun utk necessities je. gila betul.

masa march tu, gov announced PKP on the 18th. i balik jb a week before first PKP started. masa tu budak2 belum cuti sek, tapi i dah cuti kan dia. tak sangka tiba2 kena PKP kat sana. tp ok lah, ada fathin, ada yudha. day by day, week by week, month by month. makin extend2, tak boleh rentas daerah/negeri. so stranded few months kat JB. puasa kat JB, Raya pun kt JB. then on June, baru lah gov longgarkan syarat tu, then myself and the kids dah boleh balik Kajang. oh  masa i balik JB tu my husband tak ikut, sebab dia kerja. sebab fikirkan nak stay mcm a week or two, tapi tak pasal2 berbulan2 stranded kat JB. but it was ok lah. then sek Thaqif ada buat online class. masa awal2 tu macam kecoh sikit lah. tak terurus sikit haha. oh, lupa nak cerita, masa first batch PKP ni kan, askar siap campur tangan tau. meaning, askar2 semua mmg guard setiap ceruk. tak bg siapa2 pun keluar, dorang buat road blocks, everywhere. terus paranoid gila kita orang ni. hari2 mesti dgr news from KKM, without failed. 

ok now, still PKP kan, and still online class lah. tapi dah lebih teratur. lebih senang sikit lah sebab kalau kat JB awl tu, kena pinjam laptop fathin (tithin) tapi tithin pun nak kena buat kerja dia kan. rasa tak best lah kacau tithin nak buat kerja. and PKP now business all resume. tp kena follow SOP. as for now, only 3 person in a car kalau nak pegi mana2, but still tak boleh rentas daerah/negeri. oh ada certain states yg total lockdown. sbb gov dah bijak sikit lah handle ni.

yang aja pulak mmg stay kat cheras. still kat sana. now dah boleh lah keluar2 tapi yg penting SOP tu kena jaga lah. mask all the time kalau keluar tu. sanitisers. check in MySejahtera, check suhu. mmg betul2 new norm dah sekarang ni. awal2 dulu lah tak biasa. now dah part of our routine kalau keluar mana2, even pergi kedai dekat ke jauh ke, kejap ke lama ke, still kena buat tu semua. 

i tengah nak tidokan anak2 sebenarnya ni tapi i suruh dorang tido sendiri while mama updating this, haha. 

good night

xoxo

FOOD

Bila org cerita pasal kesedapan sesuatu makanan tu... hmm sebenarnya ia sgt subjective tau. apa yg kita rasa sedap tu belum temtu sedap pada tekak org lain. sama jugak bila kita ckp masakan mak kita sedap, tapi mungkin bg orang lain, tu biasa biasa jek. bercakap pasal masakan mak kita, sebab kita dibesarkan dengan masakan, style mcm tu dari kecik, sebab tu kita rasa masakan ibu lah masakan yg terbaik dan terhebat.

ada satu cerita.. (yg diceritakan balik oleh my biras and my husband)

there was one time, my firstborn, Thaqif went to Wawan's house dgn the father, masa tu dia lapar, dia nak makan nasi, butter and fried egg with kicap. tapi dia taknak atok dia masakkan. dia cakap atok dia masak tak sedap. dia nak mama (me) yg masakkan. so kira nya time tu dia sanggup lah tunggu sampai balik rumah, i masakkan baru lah dia makan. 

what i'm trying to say here is.. mungkin cara masakan tu je yg lain. yg buat kita prefer certain people yg masak. ada org goreng telur, putih dia lembut, ada org buat garing. ada org masak sardin, siap ada bawang, cili, etc. ada org pulak masak sardin terus masuk satu tin mcm tu jek. pokok pangkalnya, sumber/tajuk utama nya tetap sama. 

that's why i don't really eager bila org sibuk dok viral2 kan certain foods. because tekak masing2 x sama penerimaannya. i did try once, ada satu jnis makanan ni org sibuk dok cakap2.. i did try.. but it turned out so-so je to me. since then, i dont really eager, berebut2 nak try. mcm boba2 skrg tgh trend, The Alley la, Di Fu Tang ke jadah apa tah nama dia. so benda2 mcm tu lah.. yes i do (extremely) like benda manis2, kudapan2, dessert2 ni semua. cuma definition of SEDAP to me is different that others. 

p/s: Teh Ais is still my favourite

Khayal

the reason i deactivated my FB account since ada anak ni bcause i rasa nanti i spend too much on it, nanti satu apa pun tak buat.

tapi bila i dah mula active on blogging balik ni, rasa macam2 nak share nak post nak cerita, mcm sama je tahap ketagihan dan kekhayalan ni dgn FB 😄

p/s: thaqif tgh terjerit2 ni ckp x jumpa newspaper sebab i promised him yesterday that today ada activity painting "lion dance" dia.

"POKOK" by Thaqif

On last Wednesday, thaqif came back from school. terjerit2 "mama, saya bawak balik pokok ni", knocking on the door. i was in the toilet masa tu, tertanya2 lah jugak pokok apa pulak yg dia bawak balik ni.

rupanya dia bawak balik "pokok" ni 😄

Day 1 (Wednesday, 18/9 - 5.35pm)

Day 2 (Thursday, 19/9 - 10.57am)

Day 2 (Thursday, 19/9 - 11.54pm)

Day 3 (Friday, 20/9 - 11.11am)

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masa dia bawak balik tu, he was so excited..

T : mama2, mama safwan kan, dia tolong jagakan pokok dia sampai dah tall sangat.

Me : ok, nanti mama sprinkle kan water, nanti mama jagakan jugak ok

T : yay! tq mama (sambil peluk amma)

being a mother ni kan, kita memang tak boleh kalau mcm anak ckp yg kawan2 dia dpt ni, kwn dia buat itu ini, mula lah kita pun akan cuba sehabis baik fulfill kan apa yg kita rs kita mampu. betul tak?

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there was one time lah, kat shopping mall, we passed by Smiggle store (i never keen about this brand before)

"mama2, kejap2, saya nak masuk sini kejap boleh? nak tengok je'

"mama, kawan sy kan, ada ni tau"

perasaan i masa tu, rasa mcm sayu pulak hati ni. dia tak mintak to have that. dia cuma cakap yg kawan dia ada benda tu. tapi hati ibu mcm i ni, i cannot ok. 😢

sebenarnya bukan kita ajar pun anak2 kita utk mcm demanding on certain brands ke apa. tapi sebab tak sampai hati tau dengar bila dia ckp kwn dia ada mcm tu, mcm ni.. entah ek.. susah sikit kot nak explain kalau org yg susah nak faham kenapa kita akan cuba nak fulfill kan apa yg anak kita nak.

ok, lari pulak dari tajuk asal "POKOK". ok bye.

Reborn

rasa nak hidupkan balik blog ni, because i've been blogging since 2009. habis belajar dulu terus dah less active, dah start kerja dan kahwin ada anak terus senyap. but now, rasa nak hidupkan balik. cuma takkan nak buat blog baru. tapi, takkan nak delete pun sebab byk gila posts. so i just leave it as it is lah. eceh, cakap acah2 mcm ramai followers je kan 😂