:: Round round baby round round ::

hari ni, off day. public holiday. bangun2 dah pukul 2 lebih. tu pun lepas dapat msg. haih~ kacau betul.

lepas tu, terus terfikir, baik keluar hari ni dgn my family. sebab nanti balik dpd KL, takut dah ter over spent kat KL nanti. dah xde budget for my parents. so, bangun2 je terus ajak mama keluar. dia pun ok. so, dgn sepantas kilat nye pergi amik bakul mandi, n shuuu~ shuuu~ [ni bunyik tgh mandi].

around 4 baru keluar. at first ajak dia org pergi Bukit Indah. tapi mama cakap jauh n takut xsempat sebab dee kerja. so, mama cakap baik pergi Metrojaya je. ye ye. mama kalau bab beli2 dia suka shopping kat metrojaya, xtahu la kenapa. entah hape yg best nye metrojaya pun x tahu la [sebenarnye x suka pergi Metrojaya sebab baju2nye selalu x muat di badan ku~! T_T]

dah pusing2. alangkah bosannya metrojaya kat danga city mall tu. the shopping complex itself yg bosan. sigh! pusing2 dekat situ jugak. dah belek punya belek, dapat la belikan my parents something. my 1st n main intention was, to get a pair of shoes for mama. n ya, dapat n she seems to like it so much. n i am so glad.

tiba2 terpacul dimulutnya.... 'dulu kecik2 mama yang sibuk2 belikan kakak baju raya. sekarang kakak pulak belikan mama. kakak dah besar~'

n i was just smiling (●*∩_∩*●)

p/s: i love my family so much. they are my sunshine!

:: MYOB plss ::

someone has forced me to make a decision but that decision is his/her choice. what-the-

do u know how i've been hurt for these past few months??? huh??

sigh!

can you just mind your own freaking business??

this is none of your FreakING business!

it has already been said n done. so, what else huh?

dont be such an idiot. sigh. MYOFB!

p/s: at least.. plss.. sigh. what laa

:: Sweet like chocolate ::

When someone is so sweet to you, don't expect that they will be like that all the time, because even the sweetest chocolate also expires

p/s: you are so sweet

:: don't get carried away~ ::

ish. kenot2. take things easy.

though i couldnt control n help the feelings.

go with the follow honey..

easy meesy cheesy~

:: Raya mode ::

so, my mom dah siapkan my baju kurung. only the top la. the kain, dia belum amik from mak mah. wallao~ am so excited laa~ ^^

eh, i've got something. i copied this from my friend's fb wall..

"bila menaruh harapan pada seseorang, KITA mula cuba memilikinya..

TAPI...
bila sudah memilikinya, KITA pula xmenghargainya...
DAN KINI...
bila si DIA sudah tiada, menitis air mata mengenangknnya..."

so, back to raya mode. tengah pening. tadi i yang bersemangat pasang lagu raya. then, mother dgr, dia pun join. siap cucuk wire kat speaker!! sigh~ '=.=

now i dah stop. she still listening to raya songs. what laa~

p/s: this year would be my first raya without you

:: no duit raya for me anymore ::

cik lin : tak boleh, tak boleh. ili dah expired. dah tak boleh dapat duit raya lagi.

me : tapi cik lin, ili kerja ni sebab terpaksa tau. ili tak nak sebenarnye. naluri hati sanubari ili masih fikir nak belajar. betul cik lin. tahun depan, tahun depan. janji ni.

sigh. this is not my career la wahai pakcik. so, harapan untuk mengumpul duit raya tahun ni, memang tak nampak langsung cahaya cerah. T_T

owh~ kegelapan sedang menyelubungi diri~ '=.=

p/s: PBS, RR, Azam2416.. come on guys~ where's my duit raya. i'll text you my account number ya. (^___*)

:: wak lu! ::

ngek lu laa..

ada ke patut 'like' post orang yang telah dalam kesebakan ni..

haih~ '=.=

:: Love me for a reason ::

don't love me for fun, boy..

let me be the one, boy..

love me for a reason..

let the reason be love.

p/s: why laaa why~ why~

:: (-'_'-) ::

when you look me in the eyes..

haaa~ (-'_'-)

tiba-tiba hati jadi sebak... (-'_'-)

i need a shoulder please~ (╯_╰)

:: 7 things ::

It's awkward and silent, as i wait for you to say,
what i need to hear now, your sincere apology..
when you mean it, i'll believe it.
if you text it, i'll delete it.
lets be clear~ oh i'm not coming back..
you're taking 7 steps here

:: What a girl wants, What a girl needs ::

✿ If your girl tells you to never call her again and hangs up on the phone with you, she actually is waiting near her phone for you to call her

my say : some men understand n aware of that. but some men just don't! sigh. guess i have to create my own dream man.

p/s: shadaboo~

:: Row row row your boat ::

ya.. it keeps rocking on. haigyoooh~

enough! don't u dare ruining my mood!

so, am counting the days for the trip. ya ya, bout my entry yesterday. i know lah! its too early to buy the bag. but i couldnt stop the tinge of excited inside me. i bought it purposely for the trip only. haha. over~ duh! i think la kan, i look quite cute la pakai that bag. haha! dah la besar gila!

in fact, i told my sister, 'akak macam nak packing sekarang la, boleh x? over sgt x?'. sigh '=.=

my sister said, 'macam x nak tidur je bila dah sampai tu nanti. x pe la, penat sikit'. n i was like "what-". 'hmm.. ya la kan. akak pun fikir macam tu, penat sikit x pe la. bihtu bila lagi kan'.

we've already planned everything. hopefully, we can stick to the plan la. alaa.. lagipun to settle each of them bukannya lama sangat. so! Excited la dey~

p/s: i miss you like crazy! wait for me ya (^__^)
listening, singing n dancing to 'i gotta feeling' by BEP

"i gotta feeling, that, that night is going to be a good night~'

:: what a day ::

went for a movie. nice one. comedy movie. Grown ups. heee.. fullstop. [x boleh detail sgt. kenot2. ;p]

so, i bought a backpack. a real big backpack. when i say it is so big, means that it is way big than you could ever imagine. well, compare to my body size la kan. haha. can tutup my whole back la. hahah. but it is black. though i HATE black, but... nevermind laa.. i just love it!

mereka teman i. the best part was.. we couldnt find a place to break fasting. hahah. finally, we went to Stulang. just imagine, break fasting time, 7.15. but we reached there almost 8. few minutes before 8. hahah.

kinda enjoy this whole day. ;p

unpaid model : my sister

p/s: trying to be good. this is my innocent look. (｡◕‿◕｡) [LMAO]

:: ok. good. great. now ::

ok.

i don't know why, tiba-tiba rasa macam semangat tu datang. haha.

ok ok. From now on, i wanna be a good girl. it's not like i used to be bad. haha! [ye, my exy said i ni nakal n jahat. dia cakap masa dia tengah marah. i know he didn't mean it. i know him very well. heee. psst~ tapi jodoh x panjang2 jugak. sigh (╥_╥)].

so, yes, i dah berazam sangat dah ni. ٩(-̮̮̃•̃)۶ ala, kalau x de sape nak percaya, i janji dgn diri sendiri sudah la. so, whoever my bf is, lepas ni, so, dia dapat tgk sendiri la whether i ni macam mana dah berubah and jadi lebih bersemangat and selalu eager kan. (◕‿-) i wanna be good to him! who's that him? lol. shh~

i learn something from someone. heysh! that someone is a girl la. so, i macam admire dia. [its not like i'm a lesbian otay~! nafsu i still dekat jantan!]

and.. ya. i hope la, i can meet someone yang match dgn i. in terms of heart, feelings, character, behavior. ya ya, that day i cakap i serik, but hey! kan i dah cakap, i learnt something from that girl. so, why the heck do i want to feel like that anymore. sigh (¬_¬)

back to the story. ish. i can feel the love inside me la. it's just that i don't know whom i want to pour it to. haha. tak pe, tak pe. i kumpul2 dulu. then bila dah penuh, whoever yang lucky, dapat la. weee weee~ lucky te~? yay! (≧◡≦)

1) i wanna learn to be an independent young woman

2) i wanna learn to appreciate

kita kena bersyukur la dey. ish. takpe, takpe. ada jodoh ada la tu. take it easy.

follow the flow ye princess~ (*^ -^*)

p/s: I Love You!! (✿ ♥‿♥)

:: What a girl wants, What a girl needs ::

✿ Even if she's your wife, don't stop thinking of her as your girlfriend

my say : that's what i'm hoping for (*^ -^*)

(●*∩_∩*●)

:: differences ::

Obviously, my mother lebih selesa and suka bergurau and mesra2 with her Indonesian's steps sons.

yeah, it is true. they are all more polite and know how to behave in front of elder people. really.

plus, dia orang tahu bergurau, dia orang tahan gurau n dia orang suka bergurau.

that is why we are all comfortable with them. dia orang x cepat terasa.

Malaysian men vs Indonesian men..

take your pick.

p/s: why laaa~? why~ why~???

:: you really have to cry me out ::

"When i found out

how messed me about

I was broken

back then i believed you

now i dont need you

no more"

p/s: you'll have to cry me out

:: sucks! ::

lu bikin gua panas ah mat.

seburuk2 'org lain', dia x buat macam lu ah.

tak pernah langsung!

dah 'DEWASA' sgt, buat cara dah dewasa wey.

jangan nak pandai mengate orang, tp diri sdri macam ******

lu nak bengang ngan gua sebab gua cakap kat sini, tu lantak lu.

gua x amik peduli.

yang lu memalukan gua dgn perangai lu depan org lain, member2 gua semua xpe plak??

semua org nampak kot! mane gua nak letak muke gua sial

gua memang betul2 dah berangin ngan lu..

lu nak balik barang2 yg lu dah bagi gua, silekan amik. macam lu x pernah pulak mintak balik barang yg lu dah bg gua kan.. sile kan.

p/s: what goes around comes around.

:: What the hell is your problem dude?? ::

ape masalah kau pun aku tak tahu.

Pe motif kau huh? macam ****** betul la

aku pedulik hape tu best friend kau ke, janda kau ke. bullshit!

at first place, ada aku main kasar macam tu skali?? otak ade? fikir la baik2.

u wanna play rough?? lets bring it on man.

lu pk gua suka cakap2 macam ni semua?? g ah tanye org lain. lu buat p***t ngan gua..

what goes around comes around man.

I REALLY FUCKING HATE YOU! menyesal gua. sumpah menyesal!

memang sengaja gua cakap kat sini. gua tahu lu akan bace. gua x hingin nak hadap muka lu lagi. ape lagi nak bercakap ngan lu, memang x kan.

baik2 gua dah ok, lu lagi nak bakar2 gua. what the fuck man!

gua memang x suka bersumpah2 ni, org yang tahu tu, tahu la. tp kali ni, SUMPAH gua benci ngan lu.

perasaan sayang tu, 45mins sebelum game habis, memang ada lagi, walaupun x banyak, tapi, 1 hour after, memang langsung dah tak de.

hati gua memang dah tutup. bukan tuk lu je. tapi tuk laki lain. sebabkan lu, gua dah benci nak serious ngan laki.

sebabkan lu, gua dah x hingin nak bagi sayang gua kat lelaki.

sebabkan lu, gua dah x percaya lelaki.

gua fedup. you really broke my heart! fuck!

:: What a girl wants, What a girl needs ::

✿When you're running out the door, stop and give your girl a hug. AND a kiss. She'll remember it all day

my comment : yiii? ya ya.. right right. hahah.. if i were to get it, i would be so~ like-this (｡❤‿❤｡)

(●*∩_∩*●)

:: please go away ::

Mr. Migrain..

please go away

i dont need you.

u realize not i hate you? you know that i dont even love you. go away la u freaking idiot!

i have a song for you.. check it..

♫ migrain migrain go away~

dont even think of coming on my way~

i know you like me so much~

but i hope you know how i hate you so freaking much~ ♫

:: what lah!! ::

dah super extra migrain baru la ingat nak tidur awal

why la u princess??!

what is wrong with you huh???!

why la dear! why laa! why!!

p/s: dead. Zzzzz

:: Bengap nye ::

What la *tuuut* people ni (some). biadab.

worst than kl la.

stupid a**h**e

menyirap sial aku malam ni.

ade sape2 lagi yg berani buat aku menyirap, datang!

bulan2 ramadhan ni la macam2 dugaan.

what laa.

menguji kesabaran betul!

why la why!

:: What a girl wants, What a girl needs ::

✿ When a girl wants a hug, she will just stand there..

my comment : yiii?? ya ya.. absolutely! you're right. because she wont admit n ask for it. she'll just stand there n so, the boy should understand it laa. make a move la brother! haigyoooh~

(●*∩_∩*●)

:: new story ::

my oh my~

p/s: new beginning

:: Ensure ::

i'll make sure, i wont.

just keep it to myself.

p/s: a history is just a history

:: What laa ::

OMGness.. what laa..

please don't put such a high hope la.

don't be too confident boleh?

everything is just impossible.

please don't wait for me.

it is freaking impossible.

it is not the matter of u boleh terima i, or i boleh terima u balik or whatsoever.

but it is IMPOSSIBLE for us to be as one again

can u understand? sigh.

p/s: i just wanna be alone. being alone is much more better. kusut ar

:: Why do u even care?? ::

whereas u already have somebody else??

why do u still want to bother me?

what do u want from me?

why do u still want to 'sayang2' me whereas u already 'sayang' somebody else?

you nak jadi i yang dulu, n buat dia jadi u yang dulu??

i couldn't give you everything when we were together.

i'm not perfect. but i know she is. n she can gives you everything you ever wanted.

hopefully she can give you everything.

please treat her right.

p/s: when you begin to miss me, don't forget you are the one who left me

:: its just a normal feelings ::

its a normal feelings bila masing2 dah bawak haluan masing-masing.

in fact, till this moment.. i still feel it.

but, things has happened.

i missed all those things too.

nothing else i could do

because..

if i just follow my heart blindly, i'm scared n sure things wont be the same again.

i'm trying so hard to not easily carried away by those feelings.

till this moment, i'm still struggling n striving. =]

hopefully things will get better soon.

p/s: lets hope n pray for the best for our future (｡◕‿◕｡)

:: Now ::

azam ramadhan tahun ni..

nak laksanakan beberapa azam yg tak sempat or tak mampu nak ditunaikan tahun lepas

time-time macam ni la tiba-tiba teringat kat banyak benda sweet yang berlaku when i was still in KL. sigh T_T

i missed every single thing i left back in KL

p/s: 'babiwa'.

i'm sorry. i just have to. =|

:: Heartless ::

though the feeling is still there..

but it is impossible..

please face the fact..

stop bothering me..

stop hoping for something that is impossible.

i'm moving on.

there's no turning back.

what happened has happened.

i got my own life n you got YOURS.

it is not the matter of i'm with anybody else.

even if i'm not with anybody else, it is still impossible.

'jangan ludah jilat balik'

remember those words used to come out from your mouth kan?

so, do stick with it

you're not the only one yang phobia. i'm phobia too.

that is why.

it'll get even worst if.... u-know-what.

thanks for always visiting my blog.

p/s: 2416 is just a history. i'm sorry. though am missing it. Fin.

:: planning ahead ::

loading..

planning is on progress...

for u-know-what plan..

*tuuuuuut*, i'm coming~

wait for us, will ya?

p/s: off shoulder is gorgeous!

:: MISS list ::

The things that i miss...

- Forever chingu, Bob!

- Mochabella

- Si Gundut

- Kampung Warisan

- Precint 9

- Shopping groceries kat Carrefour Alamanda

- nice view of Pullman's Lakeside

- Mak Teh's restaurant

- Sri Kembangan [shhh~]

- LRT + Monorail + ERL + U429 + Nadi Putra

- Roller Sports World

- Months i spent in Putrajaya alone, far away from my family.. independent young woman dey

- days n nights spent with my family together with Abg ejal's n Efan's family long~ time~ ago~

- The Curve!

- Ikea meatballs!!!

- Wantan mee chicken feet at Rasa KLCC!

- Moment i spent my time with my forever chingu, bob, eating Spaghetti set+waffle [till our tummy dh super bloated rase nak muntah] at Alamanda

- every moment i spent with my forever chingu from the 1st day i knew n met him.

- every single moment i spent with him, shared all the laughters, joy, happiness, sadness, emotions bla bla bla

- Chocolates n rose

- memories

Conclusion : I miss you so much

:: Words of the day ::

Psychotic : A person affected by psychosis

Psychosis : A severe mental disorder, with or without organic damage, characterized by derangement of personality and loss of contact with reality and causing deterioration of normal social functioning.

:: Greatest gift from a greatest chingu ::

Best gift i received on my birthday from my best ever chingu, Hasbullah Effendy..

p/s: I love you chingu! thanks for everything that we have shared together for these 4 years of friendship.

:: chasing after ::

belum dapat, terkejar-kejar.

dah dapat, dilempar-lempar..

LMAO!

p/s: waiting for her red sexy dress to match with her red sexy lipstick.

mocha~ mocha~ bella~ latte~ munchkin?

:: Pie ::

Mochabella..

Munchkin..

Latte..

SWEET combination..

hows that?

hikhik ;p

p/s: addicted to cool blog

:: this (-'_'-) ::

now..

hati dan perasaanmacam ni (-'_'-)

no feeling.

blank.

blur la dey

acam ni.. (-'_'-)

p/s: rock on mocha + latte!! (≧◡≦)

:: U never know ::

sigh.

don't ever rely on other people

because u never know what's going to happen next

don't be too nice with other people

because u never know what's going to come out from their heart n mouth

don't simply accept anything

because u never know what u'll GET later on

p/s: singing to 'Mariah Carey - Always be my baby'

:: What lah ::

what laa.. what..

buruk huduh busuk gua semua visible.. sebab gua kasi visible kat semua org.

buruk huduh bacin busuk orang lain, tiba-tiba jadi invisible.

what laa..

sigh.

p/s: this is my blog. i can n just wanna say whatever i want. whoever terasa, sorry. but at least, i dont mention any names. so, it could be anyone. this is what blog is for. expressing one's feelings.

:: You know ::

you know how to make me laugh

you know how to make me smile

but you already make me cry

you already make me sad

(-'_'-)

p/s: why...

:: Sorry ::

i can't help myself~

(╯︵╰,)

am just so freaking in love with u so damn much~

(╯︵╰,)

:: Why~ why~ (╯︵╰,) ::

why laa~ why~ why~ (╯︵╰,)

why la do i love this guy so much~ (╯︵╰,)

i can't help it

i can't help this feeling~

owh god~ (╯︵╰,)

:: Hanya kau yang mampu ::

(｡◕‿◕｡)

:: Mochabella *tuuuuuut* ::

miss mochabella laa..

why~?? why la dear?? why~~??!!!

p/s: deep finger cut~! bleeding~ T_T dalam gile. berdenyut! takut nak tegakkan jari. T_T. why la~? why la~ why?? (╥_╥)

:: My oh my ::

what a life..

finally, the truth revealed..

why la.. why..

i don't want.

i just don't want

sorry. i just don't want.

i won't

if.. if.. if..

p/s: (｡◕‿◕｡)

:: MAALAAASSSNYEE~ ::

hmmm...

can you post entries on my behalf?

malas lah!!

nak pendek kan je lah!! rumusan je ni tau!

31st July

At 2 something, went out to wedding sape ntah at whatever taman lah.

then, went to makcik or cik or nenek whatever Rahimah at Pasir Gudang.

wallao eh~ so very freaking far leh. pening2 already. dah la puasa. [ya ya, ganti one la]

then duduk2 lepak2 till almost 7. then went back home

reached home, siap2, tukar baju.. Elin n Lipton dropped by.

Elin changed her clothes. ya ya, she wore Kurung. so sweet leh. [siap cium tangan every one of my family. menjiwai watak punya pasal. haha!]

8 something, went out again to Fazellah's house. got kenduri

makan makan makan. macam x ingat.

11 something, went back home. Elin n Lipton sent me back home.

miss her so much! we used to spend time together. window shopping+gossiping+maki-ing+swearing. most important, we both love camera so freaking much! *koff* *koff* actually, the camera loves us otay~

to be continued~

p/s: ♬ it's a quarter after 1, i'm all alone n i need you now ♬

adalah saya, pemilik blog ni, ingin meluahkan rasa hati dan apa yang telah berlaku akhir-akhir ni

tetapi, apakan daya, saya amat letih dan penat

teramat sibuk dengan aktiviti-aktiviti, sehingga tidak mempunyai masa untuk berkongsi itu semua

sesungguhnya, apabila saya sudah kurang sibuk, saya pasti akan kembali untuk bercerita segala-galanya serta meluahkan apa jua yang terpendam di dalam hati ini.

wallao eh~ i can be a good bahasa teacher leh!

p/s: listening to Darren Hayes - I miss You