.: how lovely~ :.

a new single from him. now i realize how i love ALL neyo's songs. haha. anyway, he's coming! here~! yes~ F here~ on 7th of Jan 2010. well, Sunway lagoon la, mane lagi. i can't afford la to go. well, i can! haha, that day la kn my last day of intern. hah! haih~ anyway, its a soundtrack from a movie, 'Princess n the frog'. nice one. i love the chorus part! got me cair already. with the melody n ya, his voice, of course.. LURV IT! LURV IT! LURV IT! eh, ha, now i got it, in this vc, neyo's a frog, n the lady is a princess. so, they all like, xsame taraf la. haih~

.: TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN :.

though I've treated u so bad, but i'm not as cheap n .... like u are. i didn't use your love. i don't easily say the L word to anyone without really mean it. 1 thing u have to remember, u did do something bad behind me when we were together, n don't ever blame me for what u've become now. people make mistakes. n so were u. i may not know how to treat you right, but i wanna see n wait, if u've found someone that love, appreciate n care for you as much as i did. i hope, she's way better than me. hopefully, she could give you whatever u really want. including ***.

look dear, this is not the way to 'balas dendam'. i know how u feel right now but that is not a good way of releasing ur stress, ur disappointment bla bla. n yeah, i'm not stupid. i know everything, n whats going on with u. n it does make me want to think about it all over again. but, think about it again if you really want to give another shot. though i really miss you so F much, but that wont change anything. though i said i love u, its still wont change anything.

**save yourself**

.: Cant~ waaaittt~ :.

haish~ cant wait to go back to my hometown! cant wait to leave KL! can't wait to stay with my family 24/7! can't wait!! i'm moving on with my life. C-A-N-T W-A-I-T!!!

.: why?? :.

why?? why do this thing happen to me. i could hardly breathe. my hands trembling. my mind cant get rid of it. why?? ...... i'm trying to keep my head up. i'm trying to breathe. i'm trying to face the fact. why..?? i know i wasn't good enough. but why..?? i'll try to keep moving on. be a better person. be a good girl. i'm trying. i'll try.

**what goes around comes around**

.: Love this :.

And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I am inside

I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch you fall
Whenever you call

**Like you, love you, adore you**

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your...

Your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door and
Take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

.: Hometown :.

it feels good to be back to my hometown. am at tarom already. its only a 2days holiday. it doesnt matter as long as i got to be with my family. nothing else matter. haa.. i have to go back to pjaya tmrow. bertolak at 8++ pm last night. reached tarom at 12.30am. he picked me up at 8.30++ pm, then we headed to petronas first. to topup his touch&go. owh, he already bought me McD. drive thru la. n ate in the car je lah on our way back. he dropped me at tarom. then he 'salam2' my family n all then he blah la, to 'balik' to his house la. tonight, my family and I are planning to go to Puteri Harbour, at nusajaya if i'm not mistaken, Dee's work place. haih~ how excited i am. owh, tadi hantar dee, waaahh~ damn nice laah that place. so many boats n yatchs. n there was a man, mat saleh one la, waaahhh~ so hencem leh~ guess he's the one who 'handle' the 'Aminah's' boat, tengku Ibrahim's aka tengku yem. waah, damn hot! cant wait to see him tonight. he wore uniform just now. waah, 'cair' already, n my mom just laughed at me, cz her daughter so very much gatal, everytime there's mat saleh man, sure i'll act like that. im so excited! haih~ you~make~my~heart~ melt~

.: Hopefully :.

things didn't work out as what i expected them to be. this is what i have to face. take them as the challenges in my life. the hard things i have to bear. it is so hard to just ignore or forget it. and i know, there must be something better than this for me. n day by day, i learn to accept things. to take it as 1 of my experiences. to be a better person. n to be with a better person. i hope, now, it wont waste any time of mine. i really hope this time, it'll work out well. n i hope you feel the same way as i do. owh, ya, i know u do.

xoxo