.: L.O.V.E y.o.u ~ :.

FINALLY~

i feel the 'LOVE~ LOVE~ LOVE~'

YOU'LL BE FOREVER IN MY LIFE~

WANNA MAN LIKE YOU FOREVER IN MY LIFE~

.: nobody really knows :.

it gets harder everyday, but i cant seem to shake the pain

i'm trying to find the word to say

it's written all over my face

but i can't function the same when u're not here

i wish u would understand

i'm just an ordinary girl

i wish that we have known

that everybody knows but nobody really knows

u're somebody else's

i wish u the best, i guess

xoxo

.: the energy~ shuu waaa~ shuwaa~ :.

arrrhhhh!!!! where the heck is my L energy nih?? seems like i've lost it. dont know when it'll regain back.

well, its not like i care about it kan. but i dont wanna hurt anybody's feelings.

haa~! i shouldnt have! shouldnt have! i aint regret about it. but, its just not fair to anybody.

wish i have the energy back in me, soon.

xoxo

.: ouuwh shweeet~ :.

Conversation between me n eddy

owh, another one..

hah, another 1

.: you'll always be my baby :.

heard this song this morning at Fly, sang by David Cook. well, actually, its originally Mariah's. n ya i like the lyric n the melody as well. thought that i could dedicate this song for you.. yes, you. the 1st one is Mariah's version. n the next one is DAvid's. it's still the same song, its just the melody for David's version a lil bit slower than the original one. ya, same lyric.. its just 'boy' changed to 'girl'. basically, its all the same. i love both version.

You'll always be my baby~

I'm part of you indefinitely~

.: Jalan Jalan :.

went to college this morning. i was supposed to go to Aja's school to take docs, books bla bla, idk. but then mama said, 'no need la, because the teacher's not there, there's no point la.' thats why i got up early. mama just informed me about it when i already waited for the bus

i took Nadi Putra from here at about 9am. Well, all the buses here are usually on time. u can say punctual la. so i dont have to worry, 'ala, kul bp bas nak dtg ni, ala, mne bas nih' that kind of thing. at approx 9.10 am, reached central already. so, i walked up to the ERL station with attitude girl~ hah, i have to wait 16mins till the ERL came. then reached Bdr Tasik Selatan at about 9.40 smthing la. have to wait for Star Lrt pulak. 10 am already in the train.

hmm, i din notice what time i reached college. but approx about 10.30am la kot. then haa.. then after settled up the PTPTN thingy which only took me about 5mins, to fill in the refund form. daymn! so wasted taw. just imagine, i have to travel all the way from Pjaya which took me about 1hour++ to reach college, then spent nearly rm15, just to fill up the s***** form which only took me i guess, less than 5 mins. haih! SUCH A WASTE OF TIME+MONEY! its a simple form actually. u have to fill in ur name, add, bank acc no, n ur signature. thats it. haih!

after that, went to Sg Wang, haih, reached there 11 something. Headed to a haigyoooh~ whts the name of the shop? i oso dnt knw what la, but the one that sells those salon punye 'perkakas' like syampoo, wig, roller bla bla. i bought 'that' thing la. haha. ya ya, i'm using it now. haha! shh~ n i oso bought a dress n a pair of pants. then, i jalan2 here, jalan2 there, till my kaki got tired already. my my, nw my kaki cannot tahan jalan lame2. haigyooh~ its been a long time la kn.

then, bla bla bla reached home at 1pm!! yay! cannot tahan leh. i could feel something like pulse dup dap dup dap inside my 'betis'. haha.

xoxo

.: How meh? :.

am not into any relationship (bf2, gf2, couple2, partner2, loving2 thingy) at this moment.. it is not for ever. n it ISN'T what u're thinking. definitely not! i'm straight, for sure. its just for the time being je. wanna be free. free from.. from.. alaah, whatever from la. i don't need n i dont have to tell him where i'm going to, with whom, when, how, bla bla. i dnt have to worry of TER noty-ing with other people. well, the truth is, i havent found HIM yet. the shining~ glowing~ HIM. hmm hmm~

yes, sometimes i do feel lonely... but it IS BCAUSE i'm living HERE, ALONE. far away from my family!! of course i feel so boring n lonely.. doesnt matter la, 'bukan lame pun'.

owh, hee.. i'm~ admiring~ someone~. n i can feel that he's admiring me too. (sometimes, we just have to be 'perasan', doesnt matter leh) Love to see his face, his smile, his voice. my hati feel so tenang. haha. i love admiring people - GUYS, MEN. just admiring. hee. no bf2, couple2. no no way. why i said so, is because if let say la, the guy that i admire so much tu, tibe2 become my bf. n, ha, when i'm admiring him, i dont knw exactly his, his what? his true colors la. buatnye his colors not so 'cun' to me, aish, sure frustrated disappointed n la la la. but if his colors so bright, beautiful, glowing, guess that's my destiny leh. ;p that's why i came up with the statement saying that i just love admiring guy, admiring man, admiring ppl. admiring means no heart will get hurt easily. haih~ i admire u lah. how meh?

.: kini hanyalah tinggal kenangan~ :.

:-)

Dinihari kian ku rasa

Ku imbas kembali waktu bersama

Segala kengan silam

Bagai berlaku semalam

Hujan membasahi kita

Ku rasa bagai tangisan gembira

Dan burung bagai menyanyi

Lagu cinta

Kini hanyalah tinggal kenangan

Tiada ku rasa dalam genggaman

Hanya terdaya mengimbas

Semua kenangan yang lalu

Tiada kata ucapan di bibir

Takku sangka kali terakhir

Kini kau tidak akan

Kembali lagi

Sejenak ku tersedar pilu

Hanya bayangan mu yang menemaniku

Tapi apakan daya

Tuhan penentu segalanya

Kesal rasa di hatiku

Kerna kali terakhir kita bertemu

Tiadaku melafazkan

Oh kata cinta

.: Uuuuuu~ :.

my dream man would be~ uuu~

someone like Reza (Gol&Gincu) blend it together with Edward (Twilight)..

tarraaah~ wow~ perfecto!! larv it! YAY!!

+PLUS+

.: I really shouldn't miss u, but i can't let u go :.

i really shouldn't have missed u, shouldn't have let u go, but i have to. n there's a part of me saying that i need u more than ever. if only i could change everything. i would....... if only i were Alice...

**Thanks for always being there for me when i need someone to talk to, someone to lend the shoulder for me to cry on, someone that i can express my feelings to, someone that still care for me, someone that can accept me for who i am, for who i was**

xoxo

.: i know~ i know~ :.

ya.. ya.. i love posting songs. i just wanna share with u guys.. i listen to various kind of songs. the oldies, the newest, the latest.. anything.. depends on my mood la, for sure.

The Cardigans - Lovefool

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem

you love me no longer, I know

and maybe there is nothing

that I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother

that I ought just stick to another man

a man that surely deserves me

but I think you do!

So I cry, and I pray and I beg

Love me love me

say that you love me

fool me fool me

go on and fool me

love me love me

pretend that you love me

lead me lead me

just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to

Love me love me

say that you love me

lead me lead me

just say that you need me

I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered,

spent my nights awake and I wonder

what I could have done in another way

to make you stay

Reason will not reach a solution

I will end up lost in confusion

I don't care if you really care

as long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me

say that you love me

fool me fool me

go on and fool me

Love me love me

I know that you need me

I can't care about anything but you

.: ........ :.

haa.. another malay song. ;p n you, hey, i'm universal la, rmmber? d 2nd malay song i've posted. i started to love this song when i 1st heard it in a malay series called 'Gol & Gincu'. ala, the one with Fazura, Pierre Andre, Sazzy Falak bla bla in it. Love the series as well. never missed it taw. i just love this song. haha. the melody n lyric, i just love it. this song appeared when everybody had problems, well in the series la. couples' problems, family problems n bla bla. really touched me taw.. ish~

Ladies n gentlemen,

Nur Fatima with 'Tiada Ertinya'

Here it goes~

Lara tiada akhirnya pabila menatap resah

Sepi hingga waktu berkubur

Sayu makin membuku di dada terhiris kalbu
Adakah ini kan terus berlalu?

Apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu?
Untuk kembali ke pangkuan dan bermesra denganku

Tiada ertinya di sini
Tiada ertinya berkasih
Semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku
Tiada ertinya menanti
Tiada ertinya buatku
Padamu diri yang merindu

Apa yang kumahukan bagimu
Tiada ruangnya berdiri dan memeluk dirimu

.: Dia :.

Kata demi kata

Jalin dengan indah

Untuk menguraikan

Maksud hati

Kuberanikan diri

Untuk memulainya

Tapi mengapa bibirku

Tak dapat bergerak

Terasa berat

Oh malunya hati ini

Bila kuingat saat itu

Kami hanya saling berpandang

Dan terdiam terpaku

Oh bulan hanya dirimu

Yang menyaksikan segalanya

Oh bulan tolonglah daku

Katakan padanya

Ku cinta dia

Malam pun kian berlalu

Kami saling terpaku

Diam seribu bahasa

Hilang semua kata

Yang terangkaikan

.: XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO :.

"Lately i've been hard to reach

i've been too long on my own

everybody has a private world

where they can be alone~

are u calling me? are you trying to get through?

are you reaching out for me? cz i'm reaching out for you~"

this kinna remind me of you..

xoxo

smooch!

.: Love Love Love :.

Jason Mraz - Make it mine.

Nice melody, nice voice, nice lyric. everything is hell nice~

.: Merry X'mas~ :.

find it so.... [din find the perfect word to describe it] hm, very 'tenang' la i must say. haa.. it's an x'mas song anyway. love it

.: Haaaa~ ='O :.

hah.. hopefully i get the tix for neyo's. or mybe i could get discounts or anything la. free pun sgt baggus! haha.. i've asked my good good friend to help me with this. haha.. ya ya.. only now i call u my good good friend. if not, dont u ever dream la. haha. so.. ya.. hopefully la.. keep crossing my finger. huhm! chia yow chia yow chingu!

owh, wo hen xiang ni so much lah~ how eh? its only been a day, but i dah jd cmni laaa. ish~!

xoxo

.:wo hen xiang nie~ :.

err.. did i spell it correctly? is it a proper sentence? proper words? hopefully u understand la eyh.. haaa~ i am.. haaa~ ='O a lot.. what am i supposed to do nih? how am i supposed to do? hmmm~... ='O

xoxo

"ee ee"

.: Love him, love him not :.

in love with Taylor Lautner [punye body, haha!] not Jacob Black. no no no~

in love with Edward Anthony Masen or known as Edward Cullen. but definitely not in love with Robert Pattinson

|Finally i've watched the movie. haih~ last night. cannot say much la. i just love it. cant wait for the next series|

Seem, i'm already going crazy about it.. ish! fortunately, i'm not in college anymore, otherwise, i'll fail my exams. bcz keep on 'berangan jek' about 'it'. haha

.: DAMN!! :.

cant wait! i just cant wait! counting on the days! ish! gonna prepare for everything, got like 3 months till the BIG EVENT! yay! n im totally excited about it. F am! gonna do a lot of transformation. workout, bla bla. haha. its not like i NEED to have 1, but hey, its my day, my night. i dnt give a F damn. just wanna have fun. thats all. wondering, who's gonna be my 'KEN'...?? guessing~ guessing~ dont have 1 in mind yet. but hey, its ok to present single. theres no harm at all. Hey you, wanna be my date??? u knw where to find me~.. wink2

Love the way you love me baby

.: check this out :.

i made this poem.. seriously la. try la google it if u found anywhere else. hah. idk la to call this, a poem or what. haha. well, i'm gonna ask my father to compose a song for me, based on this err, poem? lyric? whtsoever la. a good melody, a good song. n my sisters.. for the title. haha.

here it goes..

you were wrong

i was wrong

the relationship we used to keep

the mistakes we did

couldnt let us get hold of it,

u made mistakes

i tried to keep holding on

i made mistakes

but i wouldnt dare to stay on

we both know, our feelings towards each other

but we couldnt.. couldnt at all save em

u can be mad at me all u want

theres none i can do

wouldnt it be good for us?

but honey, there's no turning back

i'm so over it

no matter how long it'll take

no matter how much pain

i'm so over it