.: How meh? :.

am not into any relationship (bf2, gf2, couple2, partner2, loving2 thingy) at this moment.. it is not for ever. n it ISN'T what u're thinking. definitely not! i'm straight, for sure. its just for the time being je. wanna be free. free from.. from.. alaah, whatever from la. i don't need n i dont have to tell him where i'm going to, with whom, when, how, bla bla. i dnt have to worry of TER noty-ing with other people. well, the truth is, i havent found HIM yet. the shining~ glowing~ HIM. hmm hmm~

yes, sometimes i do feel lonely... but it IS BCAUSE i'm living HERE, ALONE. far away from my family!! of course i feel so boring n lonely.. doesnt matter la, 'bukan lame pun'.

owh, hee.. i'm~ admiring~ someone~. n i can feel that he's admiring me too. (sometimes, we just have to be 'perasan', doesnt matter leh) Love to see his face, his smile, his voice. my hati feel so tenang. haha. i love admiring people - GUYS, MEN. just admiring. hee. no bf2, couple2. no no way. why i said so, is because if let say la, the guy that i admire so much tu, tibe2 become my bf. n, ha, when i'm admiring him, i dont knw exactly his, his what? his true colors la. buatnye his colors not so 'cun' to me, aish, sure frustrated disappointed n la la la. but if his colors so bright, beautiful, glowing, guess that's my destiny leh. ;p that's why i came up with the statement saying that i just love admiring guy, admiring man, admiring ppl. admiring means no heart will get hurt easily. haih~ i admire u lah. how meh?